For some it may take awhile, and it always seemed that way with me, but you will realize eventually how you deserve to be treated. I tend to think the best of people, which often times bites me in the butt. There's nothing wrong with having expectations, because it allows you to develop a threshold of behaviors and personalities that you won't tolerate, but at the same time, it hurts when those expectations are not realities.
Even at 18 years old, I still face disappointments in how people treat me. Though I may talk about how I've overcome obstacle after obstacle, it does not dismiss the upset feelings that result. I'm entitled to be disappointed and frustrated, even though I have built up enough confidence to brush myself off and keep going. I may be too nice or too naive sometimes; I don't like conflict, so I don't like to bring things up, but perhaps I should.
Over the past four months I've been able to distinguish that particular friends treat me a heck of a lot better than other friends. Some haven't quite grasped that friendship is give and take, but I have met plenty or people who have shown me that there are still faithful and trustworthy people out there. I guess sometimes you realize you've hit the top of that threshold, the point where you can't tolerate being pushed to the side any longer. What am I going to do about it? To tell you the truth, I'm not quite sure, but it's about time that I've realized what I truly deserve, and acted on it.
Danielle
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